When I Listened

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“I took my fear by the hand, eyes closed, head bowed, and I whispered, “I respect you, Fear. You are very powerful, and I honor your presence in my life right now. Walk with me, Fear.”

-C.K. Kochis

Our story is our voice. We may not tell the story the same way twice; our emotional attachment changes over time. We forget details, the value of events adjusts, and over-embellish some aspects. It wasn’t until I started to sort out things on a deep level I realize I’ve been walking this journey since my childhood.

I was curious, was I the only member of our Institute For Integrative Nutrition graduating class to feel confused and unclear of what to do with my education? I spoke with two fellow classmates recently to check-in, and see how they were doing with their coaching degree. I share our stories.

 Photograph by Joan Harwood

The adventure of starting a magazine began when I was eight or nine years of age. I was the rebellious daughter who loved her mother’s typewriter and the magic I could create with it. With well-used carbon paper sheets between the pages, I wrote the family newspaper. The title in the masthead has long been forgotten. I reported about mom and dad, my sister, friends, and Robbie’s (our dog) adventures. When it was completed, I’d set up a newsstand and made my sister purchase a copy with the nickles we borrowed from our mother’s coin dish on her dresser.

Twenty-plus years after the dream was set in motion, I landed my first job in the newspaper arena. It was not a planned decision; I needed a job and they were hiring. During the interview I was hired on the spot as their sales representative. I was curious and Rolland, the editor, taught me the inter-workings of publishing a newspaper.

I joined the local radio station about a year and a half later to sell air-time. As much fun as I had learning ‘the board’, writing and recording advertising scripts, and helping with live remotes, my heart was in print. A year later, an opportunity to work at another local newspaper opened, and I took it! I had creative freedom. I was in heaven!

Life happened, things changed, and years later I found myself in a toxic job. My health declined due to the stress and I developed food allergies.

I enrolled with the Institute For Integrative Nutrition in the winter of 2015 with the intention to understand the cause of my increasing number of food allergies and how I could help others to live with food restriction. Half way through the program, I knew in my heart I was not going to be a coach as I planned.

I loved the program and received a tremendous amount of information. I felt better, looked healthier, and was sharing my new knowledge with friends and family. After graduation, I started the journey as an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach. My intuition told me something was missing. In various conversations with fellow coaches, we narrowed down my services.

I changed my title to Life Coach, and found Transformation Coaching to be my calling. Struggling, I had several deep, heart-centered conversations with Katt Tozier. I realized all the puzzle pieces were in front of me. It was up to me to put them together. In March I started researching how to publish either a newsletter or a magazine. As quick as the excitement built, so did the fear. On Sunday, May 8th, the little voice in my heart said, “It’s time.”

There’s a saying about quitting at the edge of success. It’s true. I took my fear by the hand, eyes closed, head bowed, and I whispered, “I respect you, Fear. You are very powerful, and I honor your presence in my life right now. Walk with me, Fear. I will hold your hand, and I will love you the best that I can. Together, you and I, we can do this. I’ll slow down, and do what I can to ease the freak-out-panic I feel from you. Walk with me, Fear. We can accomplish great things united.”

When I allowed myself to be vulnerable, go within, that was when I stopped asking for guidance outside of myself. My answers were right there the whole time. I simply needed to pause, sip tea, and listen to my heart.

Where this adventure takes me, I can’t say. My heart is my compass and my intuition is reading the map.

About the Author

CK Kochis, Publisher of Elements For A Healthier Life MagazineCindy (C.K.) Kochis is an Integrative Nutrition Health Coach who transformed her coaching practice as the foundation of Elements For A Healthier Life. She is providing a community space for people to share their personal stories, professional knowledge and healthy eating options. Cindy is a coach, virtual assistant, author, grandmother and sassy redhead. She self-published “Get A Compass Not A Clock” and “Unleash Your Inner Story”. For more information about Cindy’s services, please visit ckkochis.com.

Elements for a Healthier Life Magazine May 2016 Cover

Issue 01 | May 2016

This article was originally published in the May 2016 edition of Elements For A Healthier Life Magazine.